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rain_and_snow) wrote2007-08-17 01:58 pm
rain_and_snow) wrote2007-08-17 01:58 pm
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Well. I don't know when I'll be back at school, so... let the party begin!
I've got some wierd kind of throat infection - throat, not tonsil - that's apparently very contagious.
It's also refusing to respond to the antibiotics that are a fairly general treatment for these infections, which is just dumb.
I'm not allowed to see people, because I'll infect them, so I can't make the S&G production meeting, and maybe not even the ACU Open Day, which I really want to go to. Second course preference and all!
I can't eat, drink, or sleep, so now they've decided to tell me that I could get LIVER failure. What? Something to do with lots of medication and nothing to counterbalance it, apparently. Well, there's two less meds than usual at the moment - I'm on complete withdrawal now, and I managed to [WARNING, TMI ahead:] throw up my OCPill yesterday. So... gah. Actually, I can't feel the pain as a result of that, because I'm entirely focused on swallowing. ^ - ^ What a happy person am I!
Journal of an addict:
Cold and hot sweats, shakes, paranoia and anxiety, headache, 'floating', tingling and numbness, dizziness and disorientation, hallucinations, 'hearing things', metabolism and appetite swing to the extremities. It's absoloutely horrible. I've been cut from 300mg to 215 and that was bad. Then to 150. Not so bad. Now, mother has decided that I'll be "just fine" without it, and I feel like crying. It's just terrible. All I want is ONE. One a night. I could be at 75 then - like I'm ment to be for the next two or three days, depending on how I'm coping. Well, a 150mg jump is pretty big. Add to that an infection, and the red dragon, and there's NOTHING to do because you can't co-ordinate yourself enough to do it, or if you could it'd be too painful anyway. Example - I didn't let my sister in to the house because I thought she was a chain-saw massacist. (sp?) Generally, I'd be just fine to let someone wielding a chainsaw into the house, but today I pretended to BE DEAD (laugh) when she knocked on the windows and practically bashed the door down. Completely disoriented, I thought I was in middle age Japan. On my computer. >.<
I don't understand why mother has taken my medication away from me. She's never experienced this, she's told me so herself. She's never been addicted to anything. She's read that this medication in particular is "non addictive" ... and yet she's decided that anecdotal evidence from everyone I've ever known to be on the drug has found the withdrawal from it worse than their withdrawls from heroin. Mon Vache, I don't understand what she's thinging at all. DOCTORS say that it's a bad thing to come off - not mine, though, mind you. Sure, it's only been three months, but I'm absoloutely and completely hooked.
Zillah also appears to be eating again, which is not much for what I can say for myself. I can't eat cereal - just crispbreads/wholemeal salada thingos with crunchy peanut butter and butter. It sounds CRAZY considering my throat, but even yogurt makes me feel ill. And cereal... just no.
So I hope all is well at school, Sci-Fi is tasty, and that the littlies are friendly. Not *necessarily* in that order, though.
I've got some wierd kind of throat infection - throat, not tonsil - that's apparently very contagious.
It's also refusing to respond to the antibiotics that are a fairly general treatment for these infections, which is just dumb.
I'm not allowed to see people, because I'll infect them, so I can't make the S&G production meeting, and maybe not even the ACU Open Day, which I really want to go to. Second course preference and all!
I can't eat, drink, or sleep, so now they've decided to tell me that I could get LIVER failure. What? Something to do with lots of medication and nothing to counterbalance it, apparently. Well, there's two less meds than usual at the moment - I'm on complete withdrawal now, and I managed to [WARNING, TMI ahead:] throw up my OCPill yesterday. So... gah. Actually, I can't feel the pain as a result of that, because I'm entirely focused on swallowing. ^ - ^ What a happy person am I!
Journal of an addict:
Cold and hot sweats, shakes, paranoia and anxiety, headache, 'floating', tingling and numbness, dizziness and disorientation, hallucinations, 'hearing things', metabolism and appetite swing to the extremities. It's absoloutely horrible. I've been cut from 300mg to 215 and that was bad. Then to 150. Not so bad. Now, mother has decided that I'll be "just fine" without it, and I feel like crying. It's just terrible. All I want is ONE. One a night. I could be at 75 then - like I'm ment to be for the next two or three days, depending on how I'm coping. Well, a 150mg jump is pretty big. Add to that an infection, and the red dragon, and there's NOTHING to do because you can't co-ordinate yourself enough to do it, or if you could it'd be too painful anyway. Example - I didn't let my sister in to the house because I thought she was a chain-saw massacist. (sp?) Generally, I'd be just fine to let someone wielding a chainsaw into the house, but today I pretended to BE DEAD (laugh) when she knocked on the windows and practically bashed the door down. Completely disoriented, I thought I was in middle age Japan. On my computer. >.<
I don't understand why mother has taken my medication away from me. She's never experienced this, she's told me so herself. She's never been addicted to anything. She's read that this medication in particular is "non addictive" ... and yet she's decided that anecdotal evidence from everyone I've ever known to be on the drug has found the withdrawal from it worse than their withdrawls from heroin. Mon Vache, I don't understand what she's thinging at all. DOCTORS say that it's a bad thing to come off - not mine, though, mind you. Sure, it's only been three months, but I'm absoloutely and completely hooked.
So I hope all is well at school, Sci-Fi is tasty, and that the littlies are friendly. Not *necessarily* in that order, though.
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*glomps + bear hugs*
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Also, it was shown to not be addictive in vitro and in non-human testing, but since then it has been seen that this is one of the ones with the worse withdrawal effects out there. =\
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I am so confused and annoyed with the medical people and my mother for it also. I mean, they didn't tell me! I had to research it myself (yes, I'd have done that anyhow, but you're ment to tell people side-effects of both on and off).
I'm guessing that you've been on it/heard of being on it before. Thanks for the response - it makes me feel a little... vindicated, I think.
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