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I told him that I would stop dancing Latin.
I'm impressed by this, as it's been rather a large part of my life for nearly four years. It's taught me things I don't think I could have hoped to learn elsewhere, and has opened doors through teaching me these things that have had wonderful, and far less wonderful, impacts. But that's it, for a good while. It's not just the case that my heart isn't in it anymore, there are other things, but it is starting to pull away - I need to leave on a good note, I've learned that much.

A lot is in my head.

There are other things that I really ought to tell people. Others that I will not see until I have said things to, because it may change how we see each other, and if I don't it feels somehow false. Some things that I'm probably going to tell people, which maybe I ought not to tell them. Others that I probably won't say, but continue to feel that I should. Yes, there's that "being honest" thing, but it's not always necessary. Yes, I'm thinking of myself, but also in relation to other people. But I'm procrastinating by thinking about all this a little too much. I guess there are also things I'd like said.

I'm more than a little worried about screwing things up between myself and up to five people at once. Naturally, I'm never going to be certain of anything, but until I know even SOMETHING about what ON EARTH is going on, I'll be stressed.

Then there are the people I'd really like to see again. Regularly. But I've got nothing especially important to say. So it seems *strange* to propose it. I could, but I won't. Probably. Again, more thinking.

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That's a strong decision.

It is always satisfying to re-evaluate priorities isn't it.

Naww but latin dancing is cool! All swishy swishy. Will you be doing other styles now?

Also re: honesty and screwing things up with people, I know what you mean. It isn't too much fun, but you get the feeling it would be even less fun if some truths were told.