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rain_and_snow) wrote2008-12-13 12:06 am
rain_and_snow) wrote2008-12-13 12:06 am
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Five years is a long time for something not to change.
It's a long, long time.
It's nearly one third of my life, I think. Too much thinking.
I'm OVER feeling so tired all the time - I've changed what used to tire me, but it doesn't seem to have made any difference.
I want to be done with not knowing, and not understanding, and not remembering, and alternating between feeling and not feeling.
Once, I said, "I don't expect anything. That way I won't be disappointed."
Well maybe I've started expecting things. Hoping for and about. Because I keep ending up feeling disappointed. And that too sucks.
It's a long, long time.
It's nearly one third of my life, I think. Too much thinking.
I'm OVER feeling so tired all the time - I've changed what used to tire me, but it doesn't seem to have made any difference.
I want to be done with not knowing, and not understanding, and not remembering, and alternating between feeling and not feeling.
Once, I said, "I don't expect anything. That way I won't be disappointed."
Well maybe I've started expecting things. Hoping for and about. Because I keep ending up feeling disappointed. And that too sucks.