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rain_and_snow) wrote2009-07-23 12:28 pm
rain_and_snow) wrote2009-07-23 12:28 pm
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Seven weeks since I last updated, according to LJ.
You'll never leave where you are until you decide where you'd rather be.
I'm getting there, and it's good. Foods have a taste again, beauty seems less upsetting and more inspiring. Anxiety is mostly gone - I have occasional rare 'suppressed' anxiety attack things, which are terrifying, but they are rare.
Youth Allowance looks like it will happen.
Uni seemed to work (mostly) last semester. I believe I can do it again this semester, only because I've already done it. I may even be working a bit less.
I still get exhausted more easily than I'd like.
I'm terrified of being shot by a random gunman while on the stairs or entry of the flats.
I still see people and dogs that are not there, and hear my name and my old ringtone with regularity. These things rarely bother me.
'I have done well working and saving. When things look hopeless I can think about the things I have already done, and not stress so much about what I want to get done that week. I have held down three different jobs, despite how much I can complain about them. I have done a decent job of looking after myself. My relationships with people seem to be healthy and balanced. I have kept these five fish alive for a good time now. I have made some scary and mature decisions, and they've turned out for the best. I have made choices that I am proud of. I still have no regrets. I have figured things out about myself I didn't really want to. I'm pleased with how I am doing.
You'll never leave where you are until you decide where you'd rather be.
I'm getting there, and it's good. Foods have a taste again, beauty seems less upsetting and more inspiring. Anxiety is mostly gone - I have occasional rare 'suppressed' anxiety attack things, which are terrifying, but they are rare.
Youth Allowance looks like it will happen.
Uni seemed to work (mostly) last semester. I believe I can do it again this semester, only because I've already done it. I may even be working a bit less.
I still get exhausted more easily than I'd like.
I'm terrified of being shot by a random gunman while on the stairs or entry of the flats.
I still see people and dogs that are not there, and hear my name and my old ringtone with regularity. These things rarely bother me.
'I have done well working and saving. When things look hopeless I can think about the things I have already done, and not stress so much about what I want to get done that week. I have held down three different jobs, despite how much I can complain about them. I have done a decent job of looking after myself. My relationships with people seem to be healthy and balanced. I have kept these five fish alive for a good time now. I have made some scary and mature decisions, and they've turned out for the best. I have made choices that I am proud of. I still have no regrets. I have figured things out about myself I didn't really want to. I'm pleased with how I am doing.
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(I may also steal a baby pleco or three, if that's alright)
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Sad if they got ate.
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:D
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