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I have a beautiful new bow. It reminds me of some of the clothes I wore at the end of year twelve. It reminds me of being young. Really young. Which is particularly strange, because I don't remember being young - I don't remember being a child, in the more metaphorical sense of the word. Literally, I was a child. I just do not recall knowing less, having a simpler view, or anything that's associated with a romanticised view of childhood. Odd.

I was given some music by

charlesnaismith a few weeks ago, and hadn't got around to listening to it. So far I've made it through Massive Attack - Mezzanine, which reminded me a bit of Air. Not something I usually listen to, but something somewhere between trance and Enya. Next was Mika (no idea what the album's called, it includes Happy Ending, Big Girls [which I thought someone else sung. James Blunt even. Oops] and Grace Kelly which I always thought of as the colour song. I've heard them both on the radio at work. Mentioning work, I got no shifts (yes NO shifts) at the Mailing Road job this past week. I was kinda pleased about how this ended up, as I was sick most of the week, and I got to go to Worn Wild on the Saturday. Which is where I got my bow. And nearly bought a corset. Oops again.

Back to the music, though, "Any Other World" (Mika) struck a nerve, in a nice way. Yesterday Eva Cassidy's version of Fields of Gold had me in tears. I thought it was a fairly happy song? I was fortunate to be alone for the most part of this. I'd actually like to be able to cry in front of someone. Like it would make be feel -better- or... different - something. Funnily enough, I'd also feel terribly rude doing so, because if someone cried in front of me I'd have no frickin idea what to do.

I'll add that I have a WAFFLE IRON. And a GROMMET PRESS. And a BOW. I've also got some fairly awesome people in my life, and I have no clue how to let them know that they are pretty awesome and that I appreciate them. It frustrates me that there are things I'd like to say and explain, but I have no words for the concepts, and no other way to express them.

Dancing has been going well, though. I've been to two evenings the last three weeks, and have basically learned the five week routine. The part I'm worst was taught when I was there, too! I've missed dancing. I feel fortunate that it's routine time, because it's a real incentive to get there every week.

Any Other World

In any other world you could tell the difference
And let it all unfurl into broken remnants
Smile like you mean it and let yourself go

'Cause it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely, lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

I tried to live alone but lonely is so lonely, alone
So human as I am, I had to give up my defenses
So I smiled and tried to mean it to let myself go

'Cause it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely, lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Say goodbye

In any other world you could tell the difference

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RE: telling people how much you appreciate them, you could always go oldskool and make a LJ love list.

Hahaha, or an Ashley hate list, and be kind to those that you actually like. :P

name of the Mika album is "life in cartoon motion" and its an awesome album, although i don't really like the new stuff they have released more recently.

how strange....i've listening to eva cassidy's fields of gold lately too.

*hugs* that's all i can articulate here.

dancing is awesome too. get lost in the beat....it's a lovely feeling

argh...miss you. i'm just insanely busy at the moment.....and i didn't get to say goodbye to you guys at worn wild.